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Thursday, April 7th, 2016

Time:11:37 pm.
Mood: lonely.
some things never change
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Sunday, February 21st, 2010

Time:4:04 am.
Mood: disappointed.
down down down down down
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Saturday, November 15th, 2008

Time:7:19 pm.

If I didn't know how to forget
I'd be in a real bind
The meds are definitely helping

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Saturday, August 23rd, 2008

Subject:drainage fail
Time:6:31 am.
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Sunday, July 27th, 2008

Time:10:39 pm.
Mood: bored.
i miss work already
i miss being needed
T-T i wasn't needed Friday either

which is good in terms of delegation

but..
T-T i miss work
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Saturday, July 19th, 2008

Time:1:23 am.
Mood: annoyed.
Dear Mother:

No, I will not be reconsidering.
Please stop making inquiries and decisions on my behalf.

Trying really hard not to say it to your face,
-Me
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Thursday, July 17th, 2008

Time:7:53 pm.

o_=; where's the door that goes into the master bedroom...?
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Tuesday, July 15th, 2008

Time:3:53 pm.
>_>;;

OMG take a hint: I left to leave.
Your friends aren't mine. I'm not picking up their calls. I'm not keeping their birthdays in mind. I feel no guilt in hanging up on them or adding their e-mail addresses to my spam box.

Blah~ I hate being told I have to do ridiculous things.

what ridiculous things?Collapse )

"I can't go and see you"
Damn straight you can't!
Who the hell said you were invited? Don't you invite yourself to my presence.

OMG Stay the hell away from me!
I moved all the way to the US, lived in a hole in the ghetto, don't answer the phone without an appointment
What? You lot think I did it cuz I hate money? I don't like free rent? I don't like bubble tea? I don't like good sushi? Big house, nice car? Hate Canadian weather? Public heatlhcare? Clean streets? Smart banking?

Who said I wanted to see you or have interest in you seeing my baby?
I don't care for your charity; I want your "stay the hell away from me"
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Tuesday, July 1st, 2008

Subject:baby
Time:1:53 am.
lolz, baby has big butt butt XD
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Sunday, June 29th, 2008

Subject:Things Still needed for Baby
Time:7:24 pm.
Mood: exhausted.
Electronic Baby & Toddler Scale http://www.costco.com/Browse/Product.aspx?Prodid=11072222
Human Touch™ Black Sofsuede iJoy-130 Robotic Massage Chair http://www.costco.com/Browse/Product.aspx?Prodid=11284352

Please give generously :3 http://www.costco.com/Browse/ProductSet.aspx?Prodid=10024438
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Thursday, May 15th, 2008

Subject:Posted using LJ Talk...
Time:8:45 pm.
Mood: upsidedown.
kick kick kick
kick kick
kick kick kick
KICK KICK KICK KICK KICK
kick kick
kick kick kick kick kick
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Wednesday, May 14th, 2008

Time:12:57 pm.
"wanna see my code behind?" :O
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Tuesday, May 13th, 2008

Subject:delicious peaches
Time:9:49 am.
delicious peaches form our garden
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Saturday, May 10th, 2008

Time:5:44 am.
OMG.. someone tell that damn bird that he's supposed to wait till AFTER the sun rises!!!! >_<***
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Wednesday, May 7th, 2008

Time:10:33 pm.
Mood: unhappy.
i'm hungry
i'm tired
i'm thirsty
my tonsils are killing me
i'm lonely to death, and gouge in my heart and in my mind is unbearable
i wish other drivers would just keep driving rather than stop for his mistakes, and make this end quickly
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Sunday, May 4th, 2008

Time:9:26 am.
Mood: sad.
always with the lying and the excuses
small routine jobs; never done on time and whole; never mind efficient
everything that any employee would get fired for is done against me: late assignments, incomplete assignments, forgotten assignments, returned assignments

When's the "thinking" part going to start?
So tired of the alienation from having to be a parent and a tyrant rather than being able to be a wife
So tired of bringing up the fact that he never proposed to me properly even though he had the resources and knowledge; we never had wedding rings or a wedding or a wedding photo or invitations or announcements because he couldn't stop playing long enough to listen when I told him its important to me; that he still owes me an apology for the things he said the night we lured people to a dinner to sign our marriage certificate as witnesses.
So tired of crying about it and not having someone to go to for comfort and support, because he IS the source of my tears.
I want to have celebrated something about us being together, and make others have to smile for our occasion. Instead I couldn't smile for myself.

WHY?
WHY am I married, have a car, have a house, we both have jobs, but I'm suffering so badly from not having somewhere or someone to go to feel safe and protected?
Why did I work so hard to achieve all this?
Ultimately I'm still faking it on my own; except everyone sees the things I have and think I'm lucky and that I'm supposed to be happy and content.

All he has to do, is think about his actions like he would at his job and treat me about as fair as he would his colleagues.
It's degrading being treated so badly beneath that level when I'm supposed to be his wife and he supposedly loves me.

I never wanted this.
I wanted to be a wife when I got married.
I wanted to be happy and to share life with my husband, and say "together" and be relieved and overjoyed.
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Thursday, April 17th, 2008

Subject:fat gut
Time:8:53 pm.
You know you're obese when you adjust your gut on your lap after sitting down with both hands. Good thing in my case, I've an excuse.
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Friday, April 11th, 2008

Subject:Lighting Your Charcoal Grill. The right way.
Time:6:56 am.
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Tuesday, April 8th, 2008

Time:6:55 am.
Mood: crying.
i'm tired
i'm sad
i'm unhappy
no one's asked how i feel
no one helps me out of bed in the mornings like i ask and beg
i really need a hug
i want company
tired of being lonely
tired of being the chauffeur
tired of being the waiting chauffeur cuz he need to take another shit
sick of being left in bed cuz he wants to make us late cuz he wants to take another dump
why can't a 26 yr old man not make his pregnant wife cry cuz she's gotta wait for him in the car while he takes another shit and she's dreadding traffic and being late to work again and tired and my arm's numb and don't have a grip and it hurts when i hold something
why's he make me pay for his license renewal and insurance
i'm lonely and sad, i need company, i want a hug
just cuz i'm competent doesnt make me want to be the strong one
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Friday, April 4th, 2008

Time:6:13 pm.
Mood: sad.
who saves me when i need saving?
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